Psychospiritual Growth: Chiron and writing through the wounded healer

Chiron is an easy energetic fantasy. Think about a romanticized version of someone that is damaged or troubled or haunted by past experiences, but this person brings insight and depth and with these, heals others through the very nature of their presence. The wounds have value. But Chiron as an archetype is difficult to embody and address in a group. No one wants to hear about your suffering, let alone be part of it, right? Arriving at the point of “healed,” where the wounds finally start shining their diamonds from the rough.

I’m at another turn of the spiral right now, and Chiron is still here. He’s the centaur in the room. I wrote about my experiences earlier in my journey with Chiron in another post. Different time, different place.

 

So let’s go deeper for a higher vibration.

The Story of Chiron

Chiron is both–animal and (wo)man. Chiron is never of this world but is yet in this world. His place in Greek mythology is solidified with being wounded by a poisoned arrow, and being immortal suffers through this pain for eternity. Ironically, he was unable to heal himself, but became a gifted teacher and healer of others. The gift of Chiron, is that we may become powerful healers for others who we share the same wound with. To end his own suffering, he gives up his immortality for Prometheus’s freedom. If you’re familiar with Prometheus’ myth, he was imprisoned and tortured for eternity by the Gods for giving fire and enlightenment to man. Chiron, even in death, served humanity. His ability to die, leave his body that was in anguish from a wound caused by an errant arrow. What couldn’t kill him made him in agony until he became human. 

In astrology, we take the metaphor that Chiron (the energy of) is the wounded healer. We say that where the wound is, the light gets in. Chiron speaks to the energy of emotional wounds acquired now or across time. Each moment is a good moment to embrace embodiment. This is how to recover from trauma.

This is where “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” turns into “what doesn’t kill you should have killed you, at least one version of you.” 

Breaking patterns

Death is what causes us to break a pattern. Christine Simmonds-Moore writes about the nature of reality as fractals in Paranormal Ruptures. She says that fractals (mathematical patterns or meta-patterns, patterns of patterns) are a good way to understand parapsychological experiences. (2023). When we consider that the nature of reality is light and information (information transfer), and the body is a material mediator of that spiritual nature, then looking at patterns can help the logical function of the mind to organize what may seem vast and overwhelming. The nature of fractals can be an organizing framework for phenomena that are pathologized and neglected. (Moore, 2023)

Healing is natural. Depression, the kaleidoscope of emotional energy within it, manifestations of bodily dis-ease, lapses into liminal states, and dysregulated engagement with shared reality are healthy during the healing process. 

My personality had, for years, been based on those terms. A constellation of traumatic events as a young child who experienced trauma, and later, my body’s tendency toward dysregulation due to atypical neurology, led me to disassociate easily. I had a vivid imagination, one that worked in overdrive to compensate for the world I didn’t understand how to survive in. A growing intellectual body is providing support for this idea. A child seeks to avoid the pain (traumatic experience) and thoughts, perceptions, and memories are put behind a sort of barrier. (2025, Wade) Disassociate tendencies provide a way to function in the world, that is, have a sense of self. (2025, Wade) The disinhibitory pattern has been called cognitive disorganization. It’s associated with positive traits such as a high capacity for creativity because of new and unique associations that can be made. (2025, Wade) In other words, my Chironic nature contributed to the sickness, even though it was also helping me. My creative thinking was breaking the pattern and pattern breaking. The poison and the medicine are one in the same.

Transformation through writing

So I wrote. If you’ve read my work, you can immediately pick up on how introspective it is. In autofiction, I rarely interact with people around me. I meticulously characterize the sensory world. I have to write what I see around me to come back to this reality:

In my office: a hand-painted bench that my younger brother and I painted; our initials on it; our paint splotches in random drops. The cardboard carpet piece is half the size of the room, with random thoughts, and scribbles, and doodles. The scrap of red carpet on the other side, with lines of white and yellow… the floor length purple curtains that now, in the weak morning light, are casting a soft purple glow. A pink glittery hula hoop suspended from the ceiling with white ribbon and pink shower curtain hooks. The 3-foot-tall fake sunflower that was given to me by my older brother when I was 18, an item that has travelled the world and back—currently tied to black metal shelves with sparkly pipe cleaners: green, silver, blue.

 

In my fiction, I offer fantasy worlds. My current work in progress (a novella tentatively called High Voltage) offers an alternative reality, a mirror of the current world, in which the most fucked up around IRL are actually the ones to create safe spaces. Here’s how I made the world safe; written to mirror what I wanted to see in the world: 

 

Mithras brought his hands together, bowed, and said, “Step back,” to everyone else. A ball of light floated up out of the ground, then broke into four, which floated out horizontally above Orestes. Mithras laid his pack down and kneeled next to the man, placed his hands at the bottom of the spine. A whirring sound began. Orestes’ frame vibrated and lifted from the dirt, shimmering and floating and twisting and turning into air, then fell back down to the ground, the sudden levitation over. The body started to twitch. Hands reached up, the legs kicked. Torso and legs stood and folded over. The balls of energy disappeared into Orestes. The air held still. His body radiated.

 

It’s the magical world that I fell into that made me heal. It’s where superpowers–mind-mind communication, encounters with magical beings, floating in the liminal space between lives, encounters with body and ego death–that free the spirit. Wade (2025) notes that functional dissociation is encouraged in cultures that value spiritual and anomalous experiences. 

Trauma and the difficulties of life can break the mind, cause disassociation, and linger. Traumatic childhood. Creative adult, right? It’s common knowledge in psychology that childhood experiences shape our adulthood experiences. That’s part of being human. 

And yet, we are also souls, and we bring into this incarnation lifetimes of those childhoods. The pain that accompanies the soul is existential. 

My pain has been just being on Earth.

If existential pain is pathologized, we’re invoking Chiron–the pattern of emotional wounding carried across lifetimes. The undying pain. 

“Who became my power, my essence?” Ask yourself that question. And listen –that person– is the doorway to step through. Become that person. Who is the Prometheus in you that Chiron will sacrifice his life for? How can you die in one way, to let your humanity shine through in another? This is a way of activating Chironic energy. This can be a series of tests that lead to portals where you ask, “Should I step through here?” and let the old version of you die. 

The wound is the medicine–and likewise, the repetitive stories. 

Patterns over incarnation is the karma we bring. It’s the repetition of actions. When we’re stuck in the pain, the patterns can’t break. For me, it’s being in the world. A dizzying influx of sounds and sight impressions. Existing as a single person in an inhuman government. A civilization so large that I am annihilated in small existence. Identifying the patterns, seeing where they break, is where your light comes in.

Light increases light. Sharing here, and as always, as my divine mission to bring my own journey to words to the world as medicine.

 

What I was referring to…

Cameron, K and Wade, J. (2025) Childhood trauma and the emergence of precognitive abilities: a correlational study. International Journal of Transpersonal Studies Advance Publication Archive. 108. https://digitalcommons.ciis.edu/advance-archive/108

Simmonds-Moore, C. (2023). Parapsychological Experiences as a Fractalized System. In Paranormal Ruptures. essay, Beyond the Fray.

 

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